THE INFLUENCE

THE INFLUENCE

Jenna Hamilton is the new character I found through the series I’ve been watching these past few weeks. And this “blogging”, which for me is just a sort of an outlet of the things that’s going on in my head, put into words, is her idea, her influence to me. Every time we watch or read, we tend to live the life of the main or any character we think best suits our personality so we tend to apply the things that this fictional characters do. And that’s what Im doing right now, since throughout the seasons Jenna had been writing down all the things that’s happening in her life or even anything that pops into her head, I thought, maybe I could do the same, maybe I could pretend to be a writer  and turn out to be a good one. I mean a good writer not a good pretender. 

Life 101

Hello fellas!

Im back! Trying to be a "blogger" again. Haha I've been on hiatus for a couple of weeks and that is because I was kinda busy on my job exams and interviews. Yeah, I had 2 exams two weeks ago on 2 different companies.  And I did well, they both invited me for the final interview and one of those interview happened last week, the other one was supposed to be done last friday but due to some instances they had it rescheduled this week.

So last week, I went to the one company that invited me to have the final interview, it was in Makati. I went there before the said appointment time. I was so excited and anxious, kinda weird feeling I might say. I really want the job. Not just because Im getting bored staying at home, I want the job because it has something to do with my first love and that is Photography. And their genre is Wedding. IKR? So when I got their email asking me to take the exam I was like " Seriously? :"))))) ". I wasn't really expecting it kase according to their job requirements applicants must at least have 1-4 years of  experience. And Im a fresh graduate.

I took the exam, they asked me to make a layout for the client's front cover with alloted time. Then interview. And after a week I got a text message from them for my final interview. I went there, hoping an actual interview. But instead of interview, they asked me to do a layout again for the client, but not just the front cover but the whole fucking album. Its like 10 pages back and forth! Plus the front cover. But I still did it, well atleast I tried. I really have a plan of finishing it, at first, but as I tried to work in their office/studio, it gotten to me that I was wrong. I dont want to work here. Its not just the place, but I also dont feel comfortable with the people around me, the environment. So despite of my love for Photography and wedding, I turned down the job. I didnt even finish the 10 pages they want me to do.

I feel sad. I mean, sayang naman kase. But one thing I realized from that experience is that you cannot push yourself doing something that you dont really want to do. Having a job is like being in a relationship. You wont say "yes" to the person you dont love. Its gonna be unfair for you and to your partner.

Banana Cupcake is love

I know summer has ended but I live in a tropical country in where banana would never be on off market. So people, always expect banana everywhere. Banana has been very popular fruit here in the Philippines, its actually like the second national fruit. And that's not surprising, banana has very rich flavors and plenty of health benefits considering it's very affordable price! So I've decided to use banana with my cupcake with cream cheese frosting :)

I also baked red velvet cupcake but I like the banana cupcake more. Haha 

Yeah the frosting was a failure. Its too runny because the heavy cream wasn't cold enough when I made the frosting BUT still delicious and tasty. Haha

Then just after few minutes my dad arrived with this enormous cupcake that made into a small macaroons with cream drop on top. Great timing huh? Oh well someday I would be able turn my macaroons into that cupcake! And Im gonna nail it! So ciao for now fellas~

Apple Berry Pie Bar!

Being jobless leads me to get-to-know-what-else-you-can-do-good discovery, and that is baking! Actually I've been baking even before I graduated but its nothing serious, just for fun (why does it sounds Im fling-ing. Haha!) I tried baking cookies and it turned out good, I have also tried cupcakes and it was a disaster, it turned out like a macaroons with super sweet-you-dont-wanna-eat-it frosting.

This is what it looks like in it's best angle.
Forgive me with the frosting, it was my first time! HAHA

Now this is what it looks like when you remove that super sweet frosting.
Looks like a pink and juicy macaroons. 

And that was my failure in baking cupcakes for my friends, but I still gave it to them, I put my effort in making those cupcake! They have to eat it no matter what! Hahahaha.

 Enough with the past. So recently I bought some baking tools and I also got some frozen berries (strawberry, blueberry, raspberry and blackberry) from the supermarket and it turned out that the berries I got is to sour to eat as it is. So instead of turning it into waste I looked for Blueberry recipe from the internet and I got the Apple Berry Pie Bars! :)

I was kinda surprised on how the taste turned out so good. I was expecting that it would be too sweet again because of the berry jam I made but it turned out that the apple would balance the sweetness and would bring just a right kick of sour taste.

And this is one of my best bakes ever. My little sister liked it very much, she even brought some to school for her snack. It feels so good to be appreciated :)

Random Thoughts

I never thought that life would be this hard, or maybe I just thought that it would be just too easy for me. Have you had those nights in when you would just suddenly realize something that would have a huge impact in your life? It happens a lot to people.. but not to me yet. Tonight is just a night that Im being emotional by just thinking of anything nonsense.

When I was in college I never thought that having a job, a job means working in the field you are supposed to work and that's according to your course, would be hard. There's a lot of vacancy out there that could suit your abilities but only few are the REAL job. I've graduated for like almost 4 months now, but Im still stuck at home, and Im starting to hate it. Yeah at first its fun to have time for yourself, having time to sleep all day 'til your back aches because of too much laying in bed time, having those long hours you can spend in front of the television watching your favorite series for like a thousand times and as the days go by, you would get sick of those things you wanna do when your at home. And that feeling sucks. But I can't do something but to wait despite Im really tired of waiting. Maybe this is how things are suppose to work for me, maybe if I got a job now I wont be able to meet those people that Im suppose to meet in the future, maybe this is how the universe is doing it for me. Because in life, despite of how eager and deserving you are to get what you want you would never get it unless its meant for you.

Night Out

Watching a movie is not our family thing. We seldom watch in cinemas together, unless we have free passes. Last Saturday we were supposed to watch a movie in nearby cinema but when we arrived there the movie that we wanted watch is not available anymore so instead we travel from Bulacan to Manila to have a "snack" in Mercato, located at MOA seaside. Its kinda stupid idea to travel that far just to have "snack" but it was really fun!

It was my first time in Mercato, Mercato is like a street market of cooked foods (including desserts) and drinks. It is a street with a lot of food stalls on the sides and tables and chairs on the other side.

Its feels like I was back in college's foundation week. There are booths all over the place, and they serve different food you can think of, from breakfast down to midnight snack.

They also have meals for those people who cant eat dinner without rice. By the way that sisig is really good.

Who wouldn't love to eat with very soothing music, live!

Here's the proof that people are really buying this place! So crowded!

I am really a burger lover, I can survive all year with just delicious burger. And Im not even kidding.

We also tried those different rides around MOA 'til we get tired and decided to have coffee before heading home. It feels good that once in a while we still find time to hang out as a family with amazing place and food.

Baking Investment

Hi everyone! Im starting to really love baking! Baking is really fun!

Recently I was given by my Dad a hundred bucks (4000+ if converted to Philippine money) 'cause he went to Hawaii and he haven't got us anything asides from chocolates and macadamia nuts. He said there's nothing to buy naman in hawaii so he just gave us money to spend. So instead of buying nonsense things I've decided to just buy my baking tools. I was actually torn between the two things I love the most; baking and photography, I was thinking if I should buy an external flash instead of baking tools, but I just upgraded my gear so I think it would be too much if I buy an external flash. So I've decided to go for my baking tools!

Mehehehe :)

These are the things I got:

• non stick load pan
• non stick cake pan
• cooling rack
• piping bags and tips 
• square baking pan
• rectangle baking pan
• baking thermometer

I was also able to buy fabrics for my dress witch cost me 25 bucks. And I save whats left because I dont wanna be pennyless.