Random Thoughts

I never thought that life would be this hard, or maybe I just thought that it would be just too easy for me. Have you had those nights in when you would just suddenly realize something that would have a huge impact in your life? It happens a lot to people.. but not to me yet. Tonight is just a night that Im being emotional by just thinking of anything nonsense.

When I was in college I never thought that having a job, a job means working in the field you are supposed to work and that's according to your course, would be hard. There's a lot of vacancy out there that could suit your abilities but only few are the REAL job. I've graduated for like almost 4 months now, but Im still stuck at home, and Im starting to hate it. Yeah at first its fun to have time for yourself, having time to sleep all day 'til your back aches because of too much laying in bed time, having those long hours you can spend in front of the television watching your favorite series for like a thousand times and as the days go by, you would get sick of those things you wanna do when your at home. And that feeling sucks. But I can't do something but to wait despite Im really tired of waiting. Maybe this is how things are suppose to work for me, maybe if I got a job now I wont be able to meet those people that Im suppose to meet in the future, maybe this is how the universe is doing it for me. Because in life, despite of how eager and deserving you are to get what you want you would never get it unless its meant for you.